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Monday, July 30, 2007

the feeling of taking on the whole world? the feeling of making or breaking a world when you make your decision? the feeling of you know you can turn around and away but you can't? you can't because you love too much. too mixed.

I'm thankful for every single help that came and comes along in any minute portions for anything.

pet has gotten "teardrops on my guitar" stuck in my head. haha. i need another song to push it out.

recently I've been thinking alot about how people will talk about what's not good in others, why is behaviour/character like that nowadays, why has the generation become this way? That they've given up trying to be like "good" because no one else is, because no one else is trying. Like you know, talk about people in a negative way. But alot of times, they are doing the same things. Or even stop trying to be good, then become like "them". might not be exactly the same. but acts in a way that just brings it to actually the same? Then you wonder, why does men (everyone) never see that you have the "same" flaw as others, and that you're just as "sinful" as others, why do you condemn when you were not condemn by the only One who has a right to condemn. You have no right to judge anyway (I said this once to someone - point blank - I didn't even realise it came out until my other fren clapped and cheered and snubbed him and walked away from the conversation - then I opppps and then awkward silence.hahaha.)

Matthew 7:1-5
1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
3"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.

I guess what I'm trying to say is just that, why do people say they are disappointed in people when they were and are a part of it? And they can change it, but think it's too difficult when everyone's like that. If everyone thought that "oh no, I'm not going to be like that, I'm going to stay 'good'" - then how different would that be? Someone must take that initiative in self and stand on it and so why not you? then some people will say then, why not them? so these people shouldn't come back and complain and judge. because you're the same.

I believe this applies to gossip too la. think about it. that's why I don't like gossip.

Actually these things are very "everyday". everywhere. anything also can extrapolate to that - if you think about it. so yarps. just thinking about it nowadays - and I still stand where I stood before. =) where the good shines through, and the bad will change and disappear with time. But nobody's perfect, I make mistakes too, I might have subtlely, unknowingly made that mistake too. but at least I know where I stand, I know I am working towards being what I believe.

Oh and this, John 8:7
"7However, when they persisted with their question, He raised Himself up and said, Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her." - stone = isn't it right to say it's verbal abuse too?

tired to write more, yikes. my ELISA results haven't analyse. yikes. don't care le. sleep first. still have to make sure i'm in lab at 9am tml cause my sup's in tml! i don't even know how im going to wake up. sure snooze until my button spoil loh. I should just buy an alarm clock and get someone to hide my alarm clock somewhere every night after I sleep, so that when it rings, i have no choice but to climb out to find that ringing alarm clock to try and silent it/snooze it. but after the big hide-and-seek, I'll be awake and out of that cosy bed. - I need to make such a big effort to wake up. tsk. I can't stand myself. actually I can. it's I-can't-stand-myself if I were someone else. I can't wait for warmer weather days.

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