IMAGE IS LOADING, PLS BE PATIENT.
Sunday, August 03, 2003
reach home early todae...one of the earliest...thank God i met charmaine at the queue for the shuttle bus or else i would have to go home alone..ahaha...then met this new guy from praise kids section...so nice to see a guy serving in the kids ministry..and todae got the solid rock mag...too bad chelle and si and son they all never come...nah nah..they dun have mag...no lah...i take for them liaoz...heavy leh..i agree with charmaine..our mag is the coolest out there man...i am alwaes looking forward to it...this time got all the deacons and leaders faces in it and a little description of them...quite interesting..now u noe who's who in our church...and Joy's story is so nice...i just love to read her story...and her language is great...God gave talents...to sing, to write..haha...minhong too..i didn't know that she was so talented too..to excel in music and be editor for the mag...amazing gifts that our Father in heaven gives us..each and every one of us...u might not noe what it is but soon...He has a plan for u to utilise that gift..or He will give u if u ask...heehee...
Had foundation stones class todae...topic was on baptism of the holy spirit...i first heard about it when in St. hilda's...and i was scared...i didn't noe much about it, onli that u spoke in a different tongue...i thought people who were "deep" in christ(like attending church since young) or leaders of the church would receive this gift...in secondary sch..i talked to my friend who was attending church since young about it..i thank God for her..she really played a part of bringing me back to God...and she told me more about it although not all...she was scared too..and i thought i was kind of normal...but in me it was like i want it..but i am scared to take the step...and when i attended ncc, i knew more and soon most of everything that needed to be known about the holy spirit...i had this desire more and more to have the baptism of the holy spirit...but i was always scared within and curious and i was hoping that the holy spirit would just come without me doing anything or anywhere , anytime...so that i won't notice and start getting cold hands and being scared what would happen..whenever pastor or someone ask people to be baptised in the holyspirit...i would just "shrink" and think that i am not ready and dun want to receive and my heart would beat very fast......but after the session i will regret and stuff..i even look up on it in the bible and in books like kenneth e.hagin booksand stuff to know more about it and how i could receive it..i even thought of asking chelle's mum to help me, to pray with me...but i didn't ask..(maybe because i thought of lulu)..todae after the class we had a prayer session to ask the holy spirit to come upon us to preside over us and give us utterance, to speak in tongues(for those who couldn't yet...)....i went...quite a number went...then deacon matthew started to pray and those who alreadi have the gift laid hands on us...my heart was beating so fast i couldn't count...the people who could pray in tongues starting praying and we the "babies" just open our mouths and just say something...i could feel something but i wasn't sure if that was the holy spirit...but the lady who laid hands on me told me she felt the presence of the holy spirit upon me and the gift is alreadi given to me...i was happie to noe that and she was a great encourager..i thank God for her...and when the session ended, i realised my heart was beating at a normal rate that i couldn't even feel it then...i was surprised and believed that it was the holy spirit that paced my heart and settled me down..the lady encouraged me to use it more often in worship and the gift would develop...and when i wanted to say something in tongue to try it out...i couldn't find any words in me...nothing..but i think because this must be developed...as deacon matthew says...we cannot compare our tonges with someone like him or someone else who have been speaking tongues for very long...their "vocab" has increased over the years...we are like babies...when u are one year old, you can onli speak one or two words...daddy, mummy, yes, no stuff...we are just like them...our vocab will increase with time..i pray that it will increase quickly..that of course i must use it...i have heard so much benefits about it..i want to use it now that i have it...thank You Jesus...thank You Holy Spirit...thank You Father!...i have finally stepped out to receive and i need more people like the lady to encourage me..
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